Angry Skies

I sit here in front of my computer contemplating the past month I've been here.

The reason for coming to Korea was to do something bold. Not to say that others haven't done nor will I be the last. I just uprooted myself, cut my ties, and left. Without a moment's notice. Most people didn't find out until after I got here.

And the life lesson here (or so I thought) is to do stupid things once in a while. 

I've always considered myself to be a reasonable person... for the most part. And despite the fact that I've experienced so much and have had moments of bliss, I can't help but be dragged down by this awful feeling. And I feel like I've potentially lost the rest of my year here. I have so much anxiety in my brain.

Risks are a positive thing when you say "yes" to the right thing even though you don't know what's on the other side. But I take calculated risks only to realize that I'm incredibly bad at math. That's why I feel the way I do.

Because of this, I feel like I've ruined perfectly good friendships, relationships and my self-respect.

There are people out there with daggers in their smiles but that's no excuse.




Sometimes I feel like I'm not smart enough, or fast enough, or brave enough to move away from this. The irony is that I'm like this because of something I did with the intention of doing something awesome -- A vicious cycle. Even though there is a network of people who love and care about me, I feel like I'm by myself.

Now don't get me wrong. It's my problem. I'll go at it the way I see fit. I never intended to write something so personal on this photoblog but a little bird told me that I'm afraid of putting myself out there. So here I am. Scared out of my mind. For the first time in my life, I'm actually putting thoughts out into the universe in the hopes for an easy, smooth solution where we all win. I have a feeling that angry skies are coming. And that things will only get worse before they get better.

But truth be told, I regret nothing.

A Marriage of a Sort of, Kind of Goodness

This past weekend was an interesting one considering I assisted my first wedding, did another photo shoot (Those will come later), and photographed the Chinese Women Olympic (OLYMPIC) Hockey team mopping the floor with the York Lions (That comes later too).

Anyway, what we have here are a few of the wedding photos from that Saturday past that I was
able to take.

A Touch Of Class

After a relentless search to get these pictures back, I finally have a chance to show them off to you all. The two out of the four guys from "Keys To The VIP" came by to York to promote a new contest... Canada's Best Wingman... Go figure... and they were kind enough to allow my photo editor and I to take some nice stills.

I remember once someone had told me, "It's not how you take pictures, but who you to take them of."

Let's hope this is a start of things to come.

Practice Before The Practice

My Make-up Artist and I went back to Megan's studio (http://www.meganstudio.com) for a couple of drinks of Jack and a quick practice photo shoot.

Hope you like it.

Headshot Shoot Shot... Shots...

A few days ago, another good friend of mine had asked me to take some head shots for him. It was for a competition he was participating in and so, we went out for a stroll and these are what happened.

Picture Day

The boys from "Keyboards And Clapping" (http://keyboardsandclapping.blogspot.com) had asked me to take some corporate head shots for their website, so I thought I'd organize something at Megan Wong's Studio (www.meganstudio.com) yesterday evening.

Unfortunately, something happened the night before and... well...

The Old Days

I remember some time ago... I think it was around when I was doing my very first short film... A very good friend of mine and I had gone out to the east end and took some pictures. She was kind enough to lend me her spare camera... Which was a Pentax film camera... and we just went at it.

Film has always been awesome medium if you had the money: Buying the film, shooting the film, processing the film... If you screwed up one part of this process, it would only cost you more money to do it over again. But that was always the thing... Film required skill and talent. The kind of thing that made you do it right the first time.

At the end of the day (In my opinion anyway), digital photography and digital film-making ultimately gets broken down into one advantage and one disadvantage:

The Advantage: Anyone can do it.
The Disadvantage: Anyone can do it.

I digress.

Sometimes, with digital, you can't always tell the difference but here, the pictures appear to be a little more "soft" in texture... If you know what I mean.

Anyway, the following shots are the result.